The Curse & The Gift

by Anita Coats

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about

I have been writing for years and haven't had the opportunity to record very much. When I decided to make this record I moved back to my hometown of Simi Valley, California. I started living by myself in a one bedroom house that had orange and grapefruit trees in the yard. I committed to record my album without incurring any debt. I worked with my dad doing construction for over a year to happily pay my engineer in cash every other week to continue the recording process. Luckily I happen to be friends with a number of talented musicians who agreed to share their gifts with me (and with you!) I paid most of them in cash and happen to still be paying a few of them in small payments when I have the funds.
I don't know that many people have the patience to be in a dark room for hours at a time listening to big and subtle sounds, but as I spent many a night in the studio I realized that, I am definitely on of them. Recording The Curse & The Gift, was such a special time full of metaphor and reflection. I had dreams that I was pregnant with twins - yes the curse & the gift. The title is also a track on the album originally written about the curse & the gift of being in relationship (and then out of relationship) and being a song writer. Songwriting is not much of a choice, it's something that has to happen to clear and process daily living and rare interaction. It's got to be rough dating a song writer and it can be a challenge being one... forever trying to immortalize a moment... a feeling. As the album evolved the meaning of the title evolved as well. It became more about accepting both parts of me - the light and the dark - my humanness and my divinity.

The album art started by me snapping photos in the mirror with my twin reflection and led to artist Joshua Smith making two beautiful paintings.

I hope that you enjoy the record and that I am able to continue to make new recordings to share - because I enjoy it so much!

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released March 13, 2010

Produced by Anita Coats

All songs written by Anita Coats except "The Curse & The Gift written by Anita Coats and Erik Penny

- Anita Coats - guitar & vocals
- Scott Cambridge - electric guitar - tracks 1-6, 8 & 10
- Jeremy Kelley - bass tracks 1,4,5,6,7,8 - vocals track 5
saxophone track 1 - hammond organ track 5
- Ryan Brown - drums - tracks 1,3,4,6,8
- Scott Doherty - piano track 1 - rhodes track 8
- James Logan - vocals track 2
- Emile Hassan Dyer - vocals track 7
- John Adorney - cello track 7
- Curt Piar - bass track 3 - slide guitar track 4
- Sarah Kramer - trumpet track 3
- Robert Musgrove - things that shake & clap track 4+8

cover art paintings by Joshua Smith www.jtsmitty.com

engineered, mixed and mastered by Curt Piar at Proving Ground Studio, Simi Valley, CA www.provinggroundstudio.com

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Track Name: Some Lipstick
I wore a red dress
He had a black tie
You got to know by now
I like the way you are

And we were dancing all around
I love the rhythm, I love the sound
Of the music I love the ground
We are standing on

I wore some lipstick
You want to kiss it right off my mouth
You want to hold me close and
Spin me around

And we were dancing all around
I love the rhythm, I love the sound
Of the music I love the ground
We are standing on

Honey don’t you, honey don’t you know by now
You’re the only one that makes my world spin around
Honey don’t you, honey won’t you
Please, please, please slow down

And we were dancing all around
I love the rhythm, I love the sound
Of the music I love the ground
We are standing on
Track Name: Crack in the Surface
You look in my eyes
I don’t know you that well, still
It feels so good inside
It just won’t stop, feels so good inside

What are you doing to me
Breaking me down, there’s a crack in the surface
Will you like what you see?
If I let you get closer and days turn to weeks

I don’t have all the answers
Don’t know what will come of this
But I’ll take my chances
Come’ on girl, take a risk

What are you doing to me
Breaking me down, there’s a crack in the surface
Will you like what you see?
If I let you get closer and days turn to weeks

When, when does the change come?
How, how many chances do I have?
For love, love that surrounds me
Strong, stronger than roots in the ground

What are you doing to me
Breaking me down, there’s a crack in the surface
Will you like what you see?
If I let you get closer and days turn to weeks

What are you doing to me
The voice of an angel
I wake and he’s singing
In my head, it spins
In my head it spins, all around me now
Track Name: Bicycle Ride
Bicycle Ride

All I know is that I like you
All I know is that I’m having fun
All I know is that I’d like to
See you again

Cuz I like to smile
I like to ride
down by the ocean side

I love the music
And life has a soundtrack
Right here in your basket
on this…

Bicycle Ride
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life

All I know is that I’m glad that
You and I have finally met
I’ve been watching from a distance
But there was no chance
I like to smile
I like to ride
down by the ocean side

I love the music
And life has a soundtrack
Right here in your basket
on this…

Bicycle Ride
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life

Doot Doot…..

I love the music
Life has a soundtrack
There was your street now
But we just past it
Here in your basket
The music is playing
You’ve got to go
But I wish you were staying

(REPEAT)

I love the music
And life has a soundtrack
Right here in your basket
on this…

Bicycle Ride
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life
I love that this is my life
Track Name: Dislocated
Dislocated
Like a shoulder out of place
It hurts like hell to find myself
In this in between state

All that I have is the sunshine
Saying good morning, hello
Today might be the day I find out
Just what I’m looking for

Disconnected
I’ve been living underground
The world is much to big somehow

All that I have is the sunshine
Saying good morning, hello
Today might be the day I find out
Just what I’m looking for

All that I have is the sunshine
Saying good morning, hello
Today might be the day I find out
Just what I’m looking for

I know it is all within me
But it’s so hard to slow, slow down
I always reach for the stars but
I always hit the ground
Track Name: Constellation
The fascinating thing about you
You are always in my dreams
We have kissed many times by now
But only while I’m fast asleep

What are the chances the stars might align
All of Astrology would throw us a sign
That now is the moment for you and I
To become…a constellation

The fascinating thing about this
As I am lying in my bed
The man in the moon
Shown through and said

Everyone deserves love
Everyone deserves love
Everyone deserves love
So don’t give up

What are the chances the planets align
With Venus in Aires, oh give me a sign
That now is the moment for you and I
To become…a constellation

The fascinating thing about you
You are always in my dreams
We have kissed many times by now
But only while I’m fast asleep
Track Name: The Curse & The Gift
I don’t know why this still goes on
My heart just won’t stop writing these songs
About you , cuz I love you you so
I don’t know why the world must know

It’s the Curse, It’s the Gift
That you get from loving me
And it all depends on what you choose to see
But I can’t and I won’t and I will not stop the words
It’s my life, it’s my breath, it’s my gift to the world

It’s this place deep inside that will not be quiet
It’s my hopes and my fears, disappointment and tears
All the joy that I have and the pain as you leave
All the love that I gave, It’s right here on my sleeve

I don’t know why this still goes on

It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the Curse

And she’s lying with you
And she is in your arms
And all I have to hold
Are these volumes of songs

It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the Curse

I don’t know why this still goes on
My heart just won’t stop writing these songs
About you, cuz I love you so
I don’t know why the world must know

It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the curse, it’s the gift
It’s the Curse
Track Name: The Flood
I’ll find a way
To build the dam
Contain myself

So you won’t have to see
What you’re doing to me
So you don’t have to know
What’s underneath

It’s the Flood
That swept me away
It’s the Flood
That won’t let go of me

I’ll find the light
I’ll walk away
This just isn’t right
That’s what their all going to say

But you won’t have to see
What you’re doing to me
So you don’t have to know
What’s underneath

It’s the Flood
That swept me away
It’s the Flood
That won’t let go of me

(GUITAR BRIDGE)

And you won’t have to see
What you’re doing to me
So you don’t have to know
What’s underneath

It’s the Flood
That swept me away
It’s the Flood
That won’t let go of me
Track Name: Stay
What can I say, I don’t like leaving you
What can I say
It’s so hard, when you have to go
It’s so hard when you… Leave

He’s like the undertow
Pulling me back to sea
I can’t fight nature
So I’m exactly where I need to be

What can I say, I don’t like leaving you
What can I say
It’s so hard, when you have to go
It’s so hard when you… Leave

He’s like the forest
Pulling me back to green
I can’t fight nature
So I’m exactly where I need to be

What can I say I miss you already
What can I say to make you
STAY

He’s like the moonlight
Blinding me
I can’t fight nature
So I’m exactly where I need to be

What can I say I miss you already
What can I say to make you
STAY
Track Name: Maybe Next Tuesday
Don’t know what to say
I get twisted
My tongue gets all tied up
I fear I missed my chance
A little romance
A little hello…goodbye
I’ll see you tomorrow
Or maybe next Tuesday

He is so darn tall
I think I’ll climb him
Reach up to the branch
To where his eye is
I’ll get real close
I’ll look inside
See his soul
Or if there’s something to hide
So he can see me
From where I’m standing
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
Track Name: Cold in the Morning
It’s cold in the morning
It’s colder at night
I stretch myself across to you
My feet are like ice

But you don’t mind, you don’t mind the cold
You don’t want, you don’t want me to go
I will stay, I will stay here with you
If you want, if you want me to

It’s cold in the morning
It’s rain clouds today
I reach for my dress
You beg me to stay

But you don’t mind, you don’t mind the cold
You don’t want, you don’t want me to go
If I stay, if I stay, what does it mean
You know this will change everything

Please don’t pretend this is something
If this is nothing more than what it was
Please don’t pretend this is more than
A night with you in your blue, blue room

But you don’t mind, you don’t mind the cold
You don’t want, you don’t want me to go
If I stay, If I stay what does it mean
You know this changes everything

It’s cold in the morning
It’s colder at night
It’s cold when I’m all alone
I’ll stay here tonight